The Story So Far

starting from today, it has been a month for my involvement with the boeing 737-800 conversion course. things are looking pretty good, and lots of surprises got unfolded along the way. the experience during the classroom sessions are pretty much the same as before, where you feel like you want to understand every little things precisely but at the end of the day you just know that it is impossible to even understand 1 single concept. anyway, lets put the technical stuff aside.

personally, i've been a fan of the 737 series ever since i was a kid. and to be honest, it is my favorite aircraft. most people fancy the big stuff, like the jumbo 747 or the fat lady that's been made famous with the name A380. but as for me, the number 737 sounds bigger than the rest, and to be able of having this great yet "beyond the horizon" opportunity to fly this piece of solid engineering totally worth a handful of uncountable appreciations. will keep you updated, sincerely from the guy who is sitting on the right side.

Currently

im in my hometown, kota bharu. it's been a while since i went back. lots of things have changed and you get those good ol' warm and fuzzy feeling when you're at the place where you grow up. i know this post has no relation at all with my previous post of which i said i want to post something that involve "great things". i guess i disappoint you guys again. im deeply sorry. but as soon im back in KL, ill post the photos and such. until then, take care and always remember not to shake it 3 times. peace.

Good Morning

people and friends. i guess thats one of the most common way to start your day by saying something either to a stranger or mates. as for me, right now i've just woken up and i have a slight head-ache. will be reporting for work in a couple of hours and this weekend was just sheer amazing.

i went to singapore for a break, and im the type of people who really suck when it comes to buying stuff because i will usually end up buying things that are similar to ones that i've already owned, if not, same. and on top of that i rarely shop, so this time, it's kinda like a surprise for me, because things went the other way around. im not saying that i've totally adept the arts thats been around, mastered, very strong and dominant in girls and wives, but all im saying is that i've wasted money on the same thing again. for instance, i've wrecked a pair of vans and i bought the same pair of vans. anyway, will be updating some great things next week. do keep your eye on this page. not literally, but at least bookmark this page or something. have fun at work, and don't ever give excuses about having monday blues. because people like me are still failing to understand what it means. take care.

Yes, I Still Exist

ok. how do i start.. i think nowadays it's kinda frequent for me to apologize before i begin a blog post. so i think im gonna do that again. im sorry for not updating this page of mine regularly. back then during early days of my blog, back in 07 that is, i feel like i can have all the time and i can put on anything that goes though my mind. but time doesn't feel like that anymore. it's not spacious as before. the four walls are cramping in. its safe to say that im getting slower in gathering up ideas for my blog.

the last post was regarding the guided tour at the ATCC. its pretty timid to be called a post actually. bear in mind that it only consist few strings of letters and just 2 photos. yes i am that slow nowadays. even with all the mobile sophisticated technology and stuff, of which enables people to easily refresh their facebook status or twitter on the go, i still find it lazy at times. even at times where i dont feel lazy in updating it, it'll for sure consists of something stupid. hands down.

so life for me at the moment is pretty fast. maybe about 1.5 times faster than previous daily experience. the company that i work with is expanding. a good sign. talk about working and business, i'm certainly very very new when in comes to it. i barely understand what tax means, and what are those minus symbols doing on my payslip? i know nothing. hows that for a take on ignorance? on top of that, in the place that i work, from my own personal opinion, i think it's kinda hard for me to find a good friend. i do have colleagues, but its just the natural instincts that gave me a certain level of boundaries, limiting the interaction that i can throw in between me and them. maybe it's because my workmate keeps changing everyday that i barely have a notion to urge me to get to know that person extensively. and i mean up to a point where i can keep their phone numbers under the "friends" group in my contacts.

and yeah, before i forget, ramadan and raya had passed and i hope everyone that celebrate it, really had a blastful holiday with their friends and family. i'll try my best to keep up the pace with updating stuff in this site, but until the next post, sayonara from me. live fun!

Dear Sky

today is june 18th. the digital clock at the edge of my computer screen says its 12:52 pm. i wonder when was the last time that i really seize the day wholeheartedly?... where the feelings like being all excited for the day by waking up at 7 am, having a real breakfast and getting a shower in the morning totally make sense. and i don't mean a 10 o'clock breakfast... and you people still call that breakfast? other than that, if it wasn't for work, all i see now is that my life or my day, pretty much starts at 12 in the afternoon. i don't know why i'm typing this. but i just hope by doing this i can get my mind uncluttered. music is all i care about ever since i have auditory perception. and i didn't watch that much tv either.

i appreciate my job. back then, the people around me tend to look at different perspective when they hear the word "pilot". to summarize things, they will talk more regarding the negative stuff about pilots. i used to hate them. but now, i don't blame them. now i do realize that they were kind of like giving me a heads up of how my industry is like. how my environment unfolds when i put on that white shirt with the epaulettes. how people approached me as i walked pass them. it's all nice with bad intentions. it will slowly deviates you off your path if you don't hold on to yourself. i knew things aren't like this during the golden years of aviation. but now its already a plague. a plague caused from civilization failure, human ego and undivided sectors of different priorities given to life on different individuals. i knew nothing about politics, but i think i do know roughly what civilization means.

nowadays they don't make pilots like they used to...
- a respected senior captain

i wish that all of the wing operators nowadays decides to be who they are now 100% only because the passion and interest they have in flying and airplanes respectively. otherwise, the term "pilots" can never be used anymore. it's already have been polluted. believe me.

Twenty One

it took me a while to really realize that i am 21. all of my life i’ve wanted to be someone. maybe not a miracle maker, but perhaps a pinch of a prayer. a soul shaker. not much of a risk taker. could be a barrier breaker. you only weigh as much as your wings can hold. is my age a number? add a handful of zeros and you have one tenth of how many miles i’ve traveled in the past month. take the "1" off the end of 21, and you get the number of real friends i have. twenty one is also the number of days where i last met my mother and have lunch with her. the number twenty one isn’t just my age. it’s my life.

growing up is a hard mirror to stare into. it’s like spilling all of your coins on the floor, or like trying to ride your bike for the first time without walls in between and falling down and scraping your knee. growing up is trying to remember your dreams when you wake up, and trying to determine which is reality and which is just an inner part of your subconscious mind. the ones that are bad, you pay no heed to it. those that're good, you believe and dwell upon it. wholeheartedly.

when waking up each and everyday…i open my eyes to an open sky. not literally, i prefer sleeping under a roof…but to a day of endless possibilities. who knows what the day holds. today could be a normal day. but one thing for sure, it will always be the day i look god in the eyes and shake his hand. and be really thankful for what he had showed me for the past years, and what he had gave me for the past month.